I wanted to stop being a burden to those around me and to silence the pain within me.
If you have troubles and like to talk about it.
I wish others would understand I still have as much excellence and potential within me than before the attempt.
But I faked being better just so I could get the hell out of there.
It can be a cry for help, which takes much strength to ask for when your mind does not want you to.
Things like that makes him very nervous.